Recent happenings

1.10 am

Weeks

Running at MacRitchie with the sister. Taken before i got lost and derailed from the nature 10km trail. The only thing i had was my towel, cap, phone and water bottle. Thank god for the phone and freaking GPS. Don't think i would have been found till now if i didn't have it.

Met the girls for ice cream ^^

 Oh goshhhh the beef bowl at Yoshi with brown rice and (wait for it......) EGGGGGSSSSS double ^^ *HAPPY DANCE*

The day i had moo moo. Think i wouldn't be a good pet owner 

Swimming with del after the study sess at NL

 Resorts World stay-cation with the family

Father's day!! Went grocery shopping with my sis to cook for my dad.

Was really happy to have bought this egg pan!!! its so tiny and convenient 

 Fathers day a success 

Don't think i'll love any guy more than my dad. :)

So very blessed. Thank you.

xx 

3:35 am

Woke up at 2 not knowing what to do
mothers day was yesterday and i felt pretty happy this weekend
Friday, school and althea's surprise party. Had a really good time. Rmb going really high with del even without alcohol.
Saturday, dragged myself to school for awards day.
Had a good chat with mrs leong and clar during the presentation
Ran out of school to catch the bus, grabbed a burger and ice cream with her and gobbled it down while waiting for the bus
Studied for awhile and people started coming in at clar's for the party
chatted, bathed and waited for my dad to pick me
Off to the little pink princess's party at house, Dempsey.
Found myself feeling really proud and happy to see how my little 'sister' has grown so big and how she looked like a walking pink gift box
Had a really great time with the fam at the photobooth that she rented
think the party really cost a bomb 4k?? mannn i could have travelled to europe with that money hahahaha shanel with her poverty mindset
Another thing that made my already really happy day was when iris told me that she was at mustafa and she could get me my casio black watch for $13 that i literally lived with for the past 1 year.
It broke last week and i was feeling really really sad about it :(
Sunday, Funday. It was mothers day.
woke up with sunny calling me if she could take our car to lunch
she came up, crashed my bed and started searching on tube how to tune her new pink ukulele that she got the day before from her friends.
Room sounded like a temple for awhile but it felt nice seeing her in my room again, invading my space.
Still remember she used to do that alot when we were all less busy with life. Actually really miss those days.
Felt bad this year for mothers day since i didnt really do much for my mom and my sis actually did a really nice card
but still, lunch was really nice at marina mandarin hotel except for that fact that they didnt have salmon sashimi but the cream spaghetti really made up for it
now, 3:52 and i have school tmr, listening to hillsong since i didn't go to church today and just suddenly had the urge to listen to it -- jesus be my centre
Just got a WA from my dear friend and it made me feel really happy
This week is going to be another super packed week and i feel that i haven't been able to have my alone time.
Really can't function when i don't have it. Need time for my thoughts to be sorted out and fully assimilate into my mind.
Right now all i can think of is the post it on my sister's desktop 'study or regret'
You can do it right shanel. You can.

The 'what ifs'

The first step that we’ve all heard a million times, but seem to forget it too easily is realizing you can’t change the past. What happened happened, and that is it. But that’s the problem; the situation had a big impact on us, so we get incredibly wrapped up in it, forgetting that our present day life is still currently happening.

As humans, we are all capable of distinguishing the past from the present, but our never-ending desire to find the answers takes over our minds. But here’s the thing, there are no answers to your “what if?” questions. You may think there was only one other option, which makes you believe there is an answer to your “what if?” question, but it’s not really about actual choices, its about you questioning what that other decision would have led you to do different in your life, and those possibilities are absolutely endless.

However, realizing that there are endless possibilities doesn’t really make you feel better, and not having a specific answer leaves you unsettled. This is because you are regretting something; you feel bad knowing that you could’ve done something different, which could’ve led to a different outcome. Feeling regret is so powerful, and I’m sure we can all admit to a time that it has led us to do something that is out of character. The important thing is to come to terms with it. Dwelling on the past won’t make you regret it any less; it will only continue to allow the situation to be an issue and reoccurring theme in your everyday life.

As harsh as this sounds, move on. Accept that you cannot change the past and that all you can do from here is make the best of it. Turn those feelings of regret into your motivation to make a different decision next time. Something I learned at a young age is that if you live in the past, you will miss the present. Decide not to let the situation from the past define your present, and future; you are more in control of that then you think.

Avoid torturing yourself with the “what if?” alternative reality. In the end of the day, you don’t know and won’t ever know, what could’vehappened. It does nothing except make you upset, and you are only wasting your time and energy. Trust that each situation is part of the path that is making you stronger, teaching you lessons, and getting you one step closer to becoming the person you will be. Focus your energy on the here and now because that is what you have the ability to change. If you don’t allow yourself to live in the present, one day you’ll look back feeling like you missed out, and you’ll be asking yourself, “what if I would’ve left the past in the past?” 

Thought catalogue 

Unjustified but still right?

Feel like sometimes people are not able to show the world the best side of them due to obligations which are used to justify our status in this world.

There are some many things that makes us so special and so different in numerous ways.
We may all go through the same thing- the same routine of life such as going school, work or even on a holiday- but we all see things so differently that makes our encounter and experience a unique one.
Just like a person who is next to you now. Be it the stranger sitting next to you in the bus or your closes friend, our thoughts are parallel superficially because of how our society instills certain impelling constrain on us but, the soul beneath this body of ours has a voice of its own that is unable to be heard by the world yet and we all should find a way to deliver this with our own ablity.

We always say that we dislike our education system because it leaves those behind if you cant catch up. Honestly, i don't dislike the system because it got us to where we are today but i resent the fact that it makes those who could not catch up feel useless, dump or voiceless when there are so much in them. Feel like those who had the toughest times are those who are actually the strongest because they have been throw into situations that require no choice but yet still survived. Then again some may survive but not want to continue fighting so how are they the strongest? Sometimes i really question my thoughts cause its always so confusing and with no doubt, i am a confused kid but one things for sure is that i think everybody deserves to be happy and only they themselves can choose to make themselves happy.

On the side note, i feel really glad to have made it through another busy week. Thank god for the people around me that always help me pull through the day :)

MI run 2014 -28/3  A ridiculously hot day but nevertheless, a fun one.

Decide that i should blog more consistently now and really need to stop procrstinating
Realization that everybody is trying so hard to find themselves when in actual fact we don't really have to. The term 'find ourselves' seem so vague and obscure since we all actually know what we want which is to be happy and do things that makes us happy.
Think I'm just going to live in my own happy bubble which consist of my family and close friends.
(note to self, need to create more distance with people since i'm not good at looking out for myself)
Now is a point in my life where i feel distracted by so many things going on with the people around me and i cant help but also start to carry their weight of their troubles.
have to consistently remind myself that i cannot keep worrying about others.

In other news, the march hols has been pretty decent. Spent time with the people i cared about and relaxed.

School starts tomorrow and i cant help but feel a sense of reluctance.
Thinking about going to europe with my friends at the end of the year shall be the motivation.
Need to start fighting the negativity and pushing myself.
new term, new you.

 

cant wait to go back to my happy place -anywhere with snow, real snow 

Feel like blogging about india and korea soon it makes me so happy thinking about it